Wednesday, October 03, 2007
It really was time, seriously. For someone who likes things to be astetically pleasing I am amazed I never thought to change my blog until today. I just could not take it anymore.
On a different note I was reading in Psalms today and I found this verse which stopped me in my tracks. I could not help but stop and reflect on it and then share it.
The steps of a man are established by the Lord,
when he delights in his way;
though he fall, he shall not be cast
for the Lord upholds his hand.
I have been young, and now am old,
yet I have not seen the righteous
or his children begging for bread,
He is ever lending generously,
and his children become a blessing.
I really loved the line "I have been young, and now am old yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken." It really struck me as beautiful.
For some reason it seems easier for me to love the Lord in the fall. Maybe it is the colors or the crisp weather but it just seems as though creation is on the brink of something. During this new season I am usually more reflective than normal. Last Sunday I had lunch at the usual (wonderful!) spot and met some new folk. Do you ever just meet people that you instantly want to be friends with? Instantly I was struck with the ackward state of "I like you, do you like me?" Watching Anders run around I was reminded of back in elementary school where you could just say "do you want to be friends" and that was that. Even in junior high, high school and college you had classes together. Now as adults when frankly often I don't even have time for the people I like let alone new people, you tell me how this works. I wonder if it is easier when you have kids, they are on the playground, you are on the playground...
In bible study yesterday we talked about loving the church. Not the institution but the people and then we talked about how painfully hard that can be sometimes. I get so ackward! Does anyone else literally break out in a sweat the minute we are forced to shake hands and participate in the welcoming? This strikes me as wrong, shouldn't I be really happy to meet other believers who most likely love Jesus? Instead I just get painfully shy and try to get it over with and see my friends. I am going to try and get better at this. Honestly what am I afraid of? Am I that afraid of ackward conversation (yes!)? Afterall 90% of my closest friends are people that either didn't like me or I didn't like at first. After all, that seems to have turned out well.